The beginning of a
new relationship always reminded me of spring. It reminded me of a
new beginning. It was like a blank notebook when there wasn't any ink
to darken the pages, just blank smoothness.
Dating Michael was
different then dating John. John and I were that couple that everyone
knew that they would automatically get there and have the kids. Our
high school classmates used to laugh and say “see you at the
wedding.” Michael and I were looked at the new hipster couple on
campus.
“You bounce back
fast”, Chelsea said one night, as I got in. She was painting her
nails a dark mocha color. It was perfect for fall.
“You're the one
that wanted to me to live the single life”, I said. “And also,
you were the one that literally pushed me out of bed. Don't you
remember that?”
“I also figured
you weren't going to be with a rebound guy so quickly.”
“What's that
supposed to mean?” I asked.
“Nothing, just
nothing.”
“You know
Chelsea, if you have something to say you better just say it!” I
shouted.
“Shhh, Alexis.
It's quiet hours now remember.”
“Fine.” I
talked in a more calm manner. “If you have something to say to me
about my life, which is mine, you better just say it. I don't say
anything about your lifestyles, and I really would like it if you
would respect my life.”
“I respect you
Alexis.”
“Then what?”
“I'm just worried
about you.”
“Why?” he
asked.
“It's like you've
forgotten about John,” she said. “You went to mourning him to
drowning yourself into this new guy. Who I've never even met, but I
can tell you that he's not good for you. Alexis, he smokes
cigarettes! That's bad!”
“What he does
isn't your business, Chelsea.”
“What you do is.”
“Is not.”
“Is too. Alexis,
you're like my sister. I can't help but worry when something happens
to you. I want to help try to prevent it.”
“What I do, and
mostly importantly who I'm with doesn't concern you.”
“Fine.”
“Fine”, I
snapped. I didn't speak to her for the rest of the night. That was
our first fight.
“What's wrong?”
Michael asked after kissing me hello. We had a breakfast date at the
dining hall.
“Nothing”, I
said.
“Alexis, you're
lying. I can tell”, he said.
“Chelsea and I
got into our fight. Our first fight.”
“You and Chelsea
were friends since kindergarten and you guys just got into your first
fight?”
I nodded. “We've
always gotton along.”
He was quiet for a
moment. “It's because of me, isn't it?” he asked softly as he
grabbed my hand.
I couldn't lie to
him. “Yes.”
“Makes sense.”
“She's worried
about me.”
“Why?” he
asked, eyes widened with curiousity.
“She's just
worried that I'm jumping into this too quickly.”
“Oh.”
“I'm sorry”.
“What are you
sorry about? I'm the one that should be apologizing to you, not the
other way around”, he said. He kissed my cheek.
“For telling you.
We've been doing so well, so happy, and no I ruined it.”
We stopped walking.
“Well, I want to know about what's going on with your life. The
good, and the not so good. I'm in it with you. So, I want to meet
Chelsea. That way, we can get to know each other.”
I smiled ear to
ear. “You would do that, for me?”
He smiled back.
“Who else would I do it for?”
After classes, I
went back to my room. Chelsea was there.
“Hey”, I said.
She looked at me,
but didn't answer. She didn't want to be the first to surrender. I
knew that streak in her. Her stubbornness was her worst quality.
“Look I get it. I
know that you're worried about me. Truth be told that if the tables
were turned, that I would be worried about you. But I'm happy. I need
you to respect that I'm happy now. I like him a lot. I respect where
you're coming from. I love you, and I was wrong for to yell at you
like the way that I did. I'm sorry for this.”
“I'm glad that
you understand where I'm coming from Alexis.”
“But, you don't
have to worry about me Chelsea”, I said.
“I'm your best
friend”, she said. “It's part of the job. Right under getting
those Best Friends Forever Alex and Anis. Wait, I just spoiled your
gift for your birthday.”
“Chelsea”, I
said.
“Yes.”
“He wants to meet
you.”
“Your new
boyfriend?” she asked. She made a face, as if she was eating or
drinking something that didn't exactly taste very well.
“Yes.”
“Why?”
“Because he knows
that we're extremely close. He wants you to like him.”
“I don't think
that's going to happen.”
“Chelsea, why are
you being so stubborn?”
“I want to like
him.”
“Then what is
it?”
“I just don't
know about him.”
“This is your
chance to get to know him”, I said.
“Fine.”
I leaped for joy.
“Yay, thanks girl!” I grabbed my purse.
“Where are you
going?” she asked.
“To see Michael.”
She rolled her
eyes. “Of course.”
“What?” I
asked, shrugging.
“Nothing,” she
said.
He was waiting
outside my dorm building, sitting on a bench. It was like a halo of
light shining for him.
“Hey”, his deep
voice said, putting out his cigarettes.
I didn't answer.
Instead I kissed him.
“I could get used
to this.”
“So could I.”
We spent the
afternoon kissing. I didn't care who saw. We just created a perfect
moment that one day we might either tell our kids the story of how
their parents were college sweethearts, or regret of something that
we could have lost. Either one seemed like a logical explanation.
But, right now I
didn't care about logic. I just cared about how his lips tasted next
to mine. I was beginning to get addicted to the taste. Logic seemed
like miles and miles of light years away from today.